Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Thank you

I have no words. 

A dear friend of mine posted this on Facebook the day her beloved left this world due to the atrocities of cancer. I remember thinking, "How could you have words?  How could you know what to say?  How will I?"

I'm not sure if I will have the right thing to say but, I do feel the need to say something. 

Thank you. 

Thank you, God, for Alice Mary Crabtree Rowe. She was your master piece. You should be proud. 

Thank you, God, for giving my sisters and I the most amazing mother anyone could have ever asked for. She wanted us to be proud, yet thoughtful. Strong, yet kind. And, most of all loving,, just that. Loving. 

My mother loved so many people. And, thanks to so many beautiful words from so many people I know that she was so loved in return. But, that really was never in question. She was one of the most lovable people anyone was to ever come across. 

Thank you for the most beautiful life full of beautiful memories. 

Thank you for giving one woman so much vitality and so much fortitude and courage and passion. And, thank you, God, for giving us so much time with her. I understand that you could use a gal like that on your team, but, we really needed her here for the time that we had her. A little more would have been nice, but, ok, fine. I get it. 

And, I thank you, forever, for allowing my sisters and I to be there with her during her last moments. That is, I'm certain, the most precious moment of my life. 

I am beyond sad. My heart is broken. But, I do understand. Most of all, I am grateful. All I can say is thank you for my mom. I will endeavor to leave an eighth of the mark that she left on this world. I hope that I can come even a tiny bit close to that. 

Good bye, mom. I love you and I miss you so terribly. But, I promise that I will be ok. We will all be ok. 

1 comment:

  1. Julie. I am so sorry to hear this.
    Your family is in my thoughts.